when you don't trust your own happiness 😶‍🌫️🕊️

Sometimes joy arrives, and instead of hugging it, you inspect it like a suspicious package 😭 You think, 'How long will this last?' or 'What is this going to cost me?' or 'Something bad always happens after I feel okay.' It's hard to enjoy sunlight when your body keeps checking the sky for storms.

I understand why you do it 😶‍🌫️ Your past may have taught you that good moments don't stay, or that calm is just the pause before something breaks. But tonight, maybe you can let joy be small enough to trust. Not forever joy. Just this song. This warm blanket. This funny video. This one peaceful breath 🕊️🤍 You don't have to guarantee the future before enjoying the present. Let the good thing touch you lightly. You can keep your wisdom without rejecting every soft moment at the door. Joy doesn't need a lifetime contract to be real 🌙