when you envy the old easy you 🧸🌙

Sometimes healing makes you miss ignorance. Isn't that weird? You miss the version of you who didn't notice patterns, didn't question everything, didn't pause before saying yes 😭 Life was not safer then, exactly, but it felt simpler because you hadn't learned all the names for the ways people can hurt you.

Now you see more. You feel more. You catch red flags before they become whole parades 🚩 And yes, that can be lonely. Awareness can make the world feel less magical for a while. But it also brings you back to yourself. The old easy you was sweet, but maybe they were also exhausted from pretending things didn't hurt. Don't hate the wiser you for needing more proof, more honesty, more peace. You didn't become complicated. You became awake 🕯️🤍 And awake people need softer rooms, truer people, slower love. That's not a problem. That's your life asking to be handled with care.